For Helen: Jae Crowder has dedicated this season -- and the rest of his career -- to his late mother
By Chris Fedor, cleveland.com
cfedor@cleveland.com
CLEVELAND, Ohio -- Jae Crowder knew there wasn't much time left. His mother was unresponsive, lying in her Atlanta hospital bed the night of August 22 as her fight against cancer came to a close.
But she could still hear. She could moan to acknowledge. So, at the urging of the nurses, Crowder kept talking. He had some big news to share -- though it seemed minuscule in comparison:
"Trade went through. We're going to Cleveland. This is my opportunity to get a ring like I always promised I would."
Five minutes later, she passed away.
Strong in support
Helen Thompson was Jae Crowder's biggest fan, his personal sounding board and primary supporter.
Crowder's father, Corey, was a professional basketball player, spending a bulk of his career overseas while Helen stayed home. Those early years led to that tight bond between Crowder and his mother and she always stayed locked in on what he was doing -- on and off the court.
Crowder confided in her throughout the summer as his situation in Boston changed. She was aware that he wasn't thrilled. In July, at the peak of free agency, Crowder's role and future in Boston turned upside down when Gordon Hayward, an All-Star and starter at Crowder's position, announced his free agency decision, leaving Utah to be reunited with college coach Brad Stevens.
Helen knew about the Hayward situation and what it meant for her son, and that he wanted a change.
Crowder was thankful to the organization for giving him a bigger opportunity when he arrived in a midseason trade with the Dallas Mavericks in 2014. But he wasn't fully committed to Boston's new plan.
Helen advised Crowder to handle his situation like a businessman, to keep it in-house. So Crowder approached the Celtics and asked them for a sense of direction. He didn't think his time in Boston was over just yet.
General Manager Danny Ainge and a few coaches told him the team was going to play small this upcoming season and was open to the idea of shifting to a different style so there could be enough room for both Hayward and Crowder.
Deep down, though, Crowder was hoping for a trade.
Night of many emotions
In the early evening of August 22, reports surfaced about the Cavaliers and Celtics being engaged in trade conversations centered on disgruntled point guard Kyrie Irving. The initial report had Boston sending Isaiah Thomas to Cleveland, but the other details were fuzzy.
Then came more information, with Crowder's name attached to the blockbuster, along with a future first-round pick and young big man Ante Zizic.
Close to 7:30 p.m., there was an agreement in place between Cleveland and Boston. Crowder excitedly grabbed his phone and made one of his first calls. It was to Thomas, who had just landed from his one-year anniversary celebration. Crowder and Thomas had grown close in Boston. Cut from the same cloth, they bonded over their insatiable desire to win, rebuffing the Celtics' early tanking plan.
When Thomas answered, he beat Crowder to the punch, explaining how happy he was that they were going to Cleveland together.
That night brought a wide range of emotions. Joy. Pain. Sadness. Grief. Heartbreak.
Crowder, the youngest of five, doesn't know exactly what his mother was thinking in the moments after he was able to whisper into her ear. But he believes she would have been happy about him joining the Cavaliers.
"One hundred percent," Crowder said. "I think she would have helped me take in the whole transition a little better than I did. She would have helped me process it a little better. I know for sure she would have. She was just always my No. 1 supporter and whatever decision I've made in my life she was there for me. I knew a part of that had gone away when she passed. That was a tough pill for me to swallow, but I knew she would have been 100 percent supportive in that situation."
Delivering on a promise
At one point basketball was the furthest thing from his mind. But the daily grind helps keep his mind preoccupied. Hooping is his way forward.
"It gets hard at times, but at the same time I know how much joy me being between those lines brought to my mom," Crowder said. "I can recall back to a playoff game last year. About to play Washington and I told everyone, 'I'm not playing this game.' My mom had been readmitted to the hospital and it was a tough time. I woke up to a lot of B.S., a lot of stuff relative to her cancer, just woke up to a lot of stuff on game day. I just told everybody -- my team, my coaches, everybody -- that I wasn't playing.
"Then I got a phone call from her after I had told everybody. She called and said, 'You're going to play and I'm going to watch you play in the hospital and you're going to do fine. Don't come home.' That was in the heart of the playoffs so that's one of those moments where I knew, 'OK, I bring her joy.' And that's what made me go out there and lace them up."
Crowder played well that night, scoring 14 points to go with seven rebounds, and most importantly, the Celtics got the win, taking a 2-0 series lead.
Motivation is nothing new for NBA players. They lean on anything for reasons to wake up at 6 a.m. before the sun rises to get to the gym, reasons to work on their craft when nobody is watching. It can be any number of things, powerful forces driving them forward when they want to give in. Crowder's always had his.
Lightly recruited out of high school, Crowder started his collegiate career at South Georgia Technical College before ending up at Marquette, where he was named Big East Player of the Year. Despite a stellar senior season, Crowder slipped to the second round, was involved in a draft night trade and didn't get much playing time in his first two seasons. He was labeled a 'tweener and constantly fought that reputation.
Now he has something else: a promise made to Helen.
"I dedicated this season to her. And I've dedicated the rest of my career to her," Crowder said. "I do this for her and my daughter. I know she's watching down on me, watching what I do on and off the court. Just want to make her happy at the end of the day. I want to go out and give my all, never disrespect the game. That's what she always used to say. 'You love the game, you cherish the game, you show respect to the game.' That's one thing she taught me and I just want to make her happy. I dedicate my work ethic, I dedicate waking up every day. When it gets tough I know she would like me to keep going, she would want me to keep fighting."
Crowder has a new daily routine. Every morning, shortly after he wakes up, he thinks about Helen and asks himself a simple, but powerful question: What would she want from me today?
"Sounds funny and may sound cliche but it's not a morning that's passed since she has gone away that I have not asked myself either that question or even just had a piece of her voice or something in my head that reminds me of her," Crowder said. "It's been every morning since her passing, something that has come up in my head about her and what she would want, how she would want me to be and how she would want me to carry myself throughout the day. I take it day by day. You have to, but I've been able to cope with the fact that me asking those questions really helps me stay within my body and keeps me level-headed."
Hard work is at his core. It's helped him become the player he is today, one the Cavs have coveted for quite some time.
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Coming off two good seasons with the Celtics, recording career-highs in minutes, field goal percentage, 3-point percentage, rebounds and assists last year, the Cavs call Crowder an "analytics marvel," a core piece of the team moving forward. They salivate at the possibility of playing him alongside LeBron James.
And yet, Crowder believes his best is still to come.
"I think she will push me to new heights," Crowder said. "I know exactly what she would want from me as a son and I know exactly what she wanted from me as a basketball player. It makes it a little easier and makes me want to be the best I can be on the court, even more so than I did in the past."
While Thomas doesn't believe Crowder is different since that night, he has seen an increased drive, a ramped-up intensity.
"I think he is more motivated than anything," Thomas told cleveland.com. "Not to speak for him, but I bet he is doing everything in honor of his mother so that itself will make you work even harder than normal. He's a very hard worker and somebody that plays and works with a chip on his shoulder. He's a great friend of mine and somebody I'll go to war with any given day."
At 6-foot-6 and 235 pounds, with a defense-first attitude, Crowder has built a reputation as one of the league's toughest players.
But long before he became an NBA player, Crowder had earned another moniker, one that can give him a reason to smile -- even when recalling August 22, when a cheerful day turned somber in an instant: Momma's boy.
"I've always been a momma's boy. I'm very proud to say it," Crowder said. "I was always her baby. I will always be her baby. No matter how big of a man I am and how big of a stage I play on, I'm always my mom's baby."
"I've suffered a great many tragedies in my life....most of them never happened". Mark Twain